Long Time no blog

So it has been a while since I added anything hear. I did finish my 5K goal Yeah! and then it was back to the school work internship grind stone. I also went back to therapy. Sometimes I think it is ironic that I am a therapist in training in therapy, but ultimately I feel it is the right thing for me. Though something happened in therapy two weeks ago that makes me wonder.

Every time I go to therapy they make me fill out an OQ ( Outcomes Questionnaire) that tracks how I am doing. My therapist pulled up the graph on it to show me and told me that basically the results were showing that I was probably not going to get any relief from my "symptoms" through therapy. This really frustrated me. I understand the need for assessment tools, but really is that the best thing to tell a client. It's like pulling the hope rug out from under them that this might work. Kind of pissed me off. We went on to have a good/ emotional session after that but now I feel like why am I doing this if it's not going to work. Honestly before I saw the chart that is my life pattern I thought it was helping now I'm not so sure. Also I felt the pattern was indicative of the disthymic disorder I am diagnosed with ( for those of you who don't know what that is it is a basically functional but constant level of depression). To quote the credits from the TV series Buffy the Vampire Slayer "Gurr Arg"

Any way life is entertaining and I am entertained by it. I hope you are all having a great day and step on some crunchy leave for me :)

Run Jenny Run Day 22 and 23

5K Training days 22 and 23: End of week 7: I have been slowly creeping up speed this week I have am now less then two tenth of a mile away from two miles I got 1.861 miles today running at a 3.5 Other than the warm up and cool down I am now running non stop 25 minuets.

Run Jenny Run Day 20 and 21

5K Training day 20 and 21: So I didn't write about last Friday it was really hard I was pushing myself really hard and it was hot and my shoes didn't fit right and I couldn't finish the interval the way it was written. I ended up with a blister on my Instep and it hurt and I was really I went to Belly Dance again on Saturday and was having such a good time I stayed for a second class. Unfortunately my body isn't used to that much hip movement and my right hip was so soar. I wish I could say that this is the reason I didn't run on Sunday but honestly I just didn't want to and we went and walked around three stores. I just didn't want to do it I find that I am fighting it all the time. There is less than a month now till the race and I just don't think I will be able to run the whole thing I am still not even getting two miles with what I am running currently and that is discouraging. I did however get back on the treadmill tonight and ran 25 minuets non stop for the first time. So there you go that is where I am at any ideas at motivation would be appreciated. Thank you all for your support.

Run Jenny Run Day 19

5K Training Day 19: Week six strikes back. I have been really struggling the last few weeks. Sick for one and then last week I only ran once. I did walk once and go to a belly dance class but I didn't run. The 5K is one month from today so I need to get back on track and so today I got back on the treadmill. 35 min Top speed 4.0 and a total of 1.8 miles. Here we go one month left I need your support.

Run Jenny Run Day 18

5K Training day Day 18: Beginning of week 6. Got sick last week and had to take some time off running, back on track today. Did run walk intervals totaling 35 minuets. i don't know the mileage due to my towel knocking off the magnetic dohicky thingy and restarting everything. It went well for not having run in a week . Glad to be back on track and I actually think I missed it a little last week, a little ... :)

Run Jenny Run Day 17

5K Training Day 17: End of week 5. 20 MINUETS NON- STOP!!!!!!!!!!! I did it Yeah!!!!!!!! ( that is all, thank you ) :) :) :)

Run Jenny Run Day 16

5K Training Day 16: Out at the Trail again today intervals were run 8 min walk 5 run 8 with a warm up and a cool down. there were tons of butterflies out on the trail today and if you know me you know I love butterflies! Every time I would pass one while I was running I would give it a little voice cheering for me saying "way to go Jennette! and You can do it ! I made them in to my own personal cheering section. Just as Sam called time there was a bunch of cotton falling around us and in my mind it was a ticker tape parade from the universe to celebrate. Silly? A little but this is what goes on in my head and I really liked my cheering butterflies :) We did a total of 35 min at 11 am it was warm and in that time I got sun burnt. Tomorrow night I do my first 20 min straight run. Wish me luck!

Run Jenny Run Day 15

5K Training Day 15: Beginning of week 5 - I am at a loss for words tonight. Rotation of 5 minuet runs and three minuet walks. I psyched my self out half way through the middle 5min run and walked for 30 seconds but did the first and third runs with effort but ran the whole time. It really is a mind game. It didn't help that the only thing on TV was 321 Penguins. If you know what that is well.... yeah. I do have a penchant for kids shows but it is not very motivating to run too. I am now watching Babar. I had a hard time today. Not getting started but keeping going. I did keep going but there were two breaks one after the first minuet to use the WC and the other one I already mentioned. I am thinking of repeating this interval, but may be not.

Run Jenny Run Day 14

5 K Training Day 14: End of week 4.5 - out at the Trail again tonight. I think this is the latest we've run at the trail. We watched for the markings some other person had spray painted and We went just over a mile and a half (In 36min). This is good to know because it means that when we are running outside I am running at approximately the same pace as when I am at home on the treadmill. Nervous about next week it has me running 20 min non stop by next Sunday so we will see how it goes. Thanks again for all the support love you all.

Run Jenny Run Day 13

5K Training Day 13: Day one week 4.5 - so after hurting myself monday I decided to take a few days off ( I did walk just not run) and because of this I decided I would repeat the previous weeks training regime but bump up my speed a little. In doing this I was able to get the furthest distance I so far 1.488 miles. What a way to start a day off :)

Run Jenny Run Day 12

5K Training day 12: End of week 4. So we didn't get to run yesterday so we set out to run in the neighborhood tonight. I got through my first set of intervals (about 18min) and started on the second three minuet run interval and the muscle on outside of my left leg froze up and I couldn't run any more. I walked out the rest of my time but the muscle is still frozen and really hurts. Any Ideas? This muscle has been an ongoing problem and seems to be getting worse.

Run Jenny Run Day 11

5k Training Day 11: I ran out of time yesterday to run so I did it today. It was really nice to get positive feedback from people this week that I haven't seen in a while. It helps to know that there are those of you out there following this journey I'm on. Knowing that helped me get on the treadmill today when my motivation was waning. Thank you all and please keep checking in with me it totally helps. (Face book post)

Today was really really hard to get on the treadmill. I had to have Sam find my clothes and I basically went kicking and screaming like a three year old. There is one part of me that wants to keep running to prove to my self that I can meet the goals I set that I can move my body to be able to keep doing what I need to do to be stronger. i want to lose weight too but I can't look at this as a device to lose weight I need to keep them separate other wise I feel I will give up. I don't want to let those who are following me down so I want to keep going for them and that accountability is helping as well. I want to have more energy and not be out of breath when I go up stairs, to feel strong and capable. In spite of my sluggishness today I still got on that treadmill and did it today. Just keep swimming or running in my case. :)

Run Jenny Run Day 10

5K Training Day 10: First day of week four. I think every inch of my body is sweating, not used to that. So I know there was a debate on if I should add in a week or not and I decided or not and did the program as outlined and guss what I DID IT!! there were two five minuet intervals and two three minuet intervals with walking in between. I am glad i pushed my self and did it!

Run Jenny Run Day 9

5K Training Day 9: End of week 3!!! Just barely missed the rain running out side tonight. I am sure glad I have Sam to support me. I had a really hard time getting myself to run today. He said that when he is tempted not to do something that means do it right then. So that is what we did dropped everything and went and run. I still haven't decided on adding a extra week or not yet. I have till Wed. to decide. Love hearing your support keep it up! It totally helps!

Run Jenny Run Day 8

5K Training Day 8: Got through all my Intervals today!! I did the 90 second ones on a 4 and the 3minuet ones of a 3.5 but I was able to run the whole time on them. I was looking a head to next week and I scared myself a little it has me up to running five minuet intervals. I have a friend who is also doing a couch to 5K program and she said that she thought she should have added a interval between week three and four and I am thinking about doing that. What do you think?

Run Jenny Run Day 7

5k Training Day 7: Beginning of week three segments are run 90 walk 90, run 3 min walk 3 min and repeat. I did the best I could but just over half way through my last three minuet interval and I had to switch back to walking I did finish out my full 30 minuets and I will keep going on Wednesday. I also did over two hours of yoga today at my connecting Yoga and social work seminar. I also walked around the U of U campus. I also went to Matt's graduation andwalked around the SLCC campus. If I go down to Snow I would have spent time at every college I have gone to. Long busy day.

Run Jenny Run Day 6

5K training day 6: End of Week 2 !!!! We ran at the Jordan Park Way Trail again. I do my last run of the week out side to acclimate my self to the out door running. My only problem is I don't know how far I run. Does any one have any ideas? The run was good not as hard as last weeks outside run but the terain was flater. This painting for three days and then running twice has been an adventure I am definately getting my sweat on :)

Run Jenny Run Day 5

5K training day 5: So I ended up skipping Friday's run because of the getting ready to redecorate my kitchen this weekend ,so I did day five this morning. it was really hard to get my self to do this run I am not entirely sure why even on Friday when I did have time I just wanted to sleep. I will do day six tomorrow night which gives me over 24 hours between and then I can still get my three runs in this week. My motivation is waning a little bit (I think spending the last two days sanding and painting is having an effect [we're redecorating our kitchen] ) but I have a plan of attack and I will do this!! I have always wanted to be a runner but have let excuses hold me back but I know I can do this. I pushed through the run this morning, the last two segments almost killed me, so i know I can keep going and do this. I like the fact that I am pushing my self to do something so far out of my comfort zone.

Run Jenny Run Day 4

5K Training Day 4: First day of week two Increase of running time kicked my trash tonight. I was excited to come home and run tonight. I am realy liking having a goal to work towards. I have also found my self having a desire to be more active in general taking the stairs at work taking more walks etc... oh and a shout out to all my peeps, holla ! hey, it made me laugh ;) and yes I do realize I am way to white to for that to sound cool lol :)

Run Jenny Run Day 3

5k training day 3: Ran outside for the first time with Sam :) not sure on distance but I did two more running intervals than normal (cause Sam didn't know when to stop lol) with a total time of 40 minutes. First week down :)

Running outside was harder than running inside. I think it will be good to do the two days inside to get used to the new interval before I go outside on Sundays. Training out side I think will be important because the Race will be outside and it is definitely different.

Run Jenny Run Day 2

5k training day 2: I was able to up my speed to 4mph and did 1.42 miles :) , just keep swimming (running) right :) I also think I have found my race :) lots of smiley faces make me happy :)

Little harder to get started today I had planed to do it in the morning but ended up reading my vampire romance book instead :} vampire with only one tooth. but I did do it!

Run Jenny Run Day 1

Day one of training for a 5K: So I found a program that is from couch to 5K in 9 weeks. It starts out week one 5 minuet warm up then run for 60 seconds then walk for 90. I also did a 5 minuet cool down for a total of 30 minuets. I ended up run/waliking 1.39 miles with a max speed of 3.7 mph. Yeah!! :) Now, I just need to find a 5K. Does any one know of one in August or early September? or a good sight to find one?