So it has been a while since I added anything hear. I did finish my 5K goal Yeah! and then it was back to the school work internship grind stone. I also went back to therapy. Sometimes I think it is ironic that I am a therapist in training in therapy, but ultimately I feel it is the right thing for me. Though something happened in therapy two weeks ago that makes me wonder.
Every time I go to therapy they make me fill out an OQ ( Outcomes Questionnaire) that tracks how I am doing. My therapist pulled up the graph on it to show me and told me that basically the results were showing that I was probably not going to get any relief from my "symptoms" through therapy. This really frustrated me. I understand the need for assessment tools, but really is that the best thing to tell a client. It's like pulling the hope rug out from under them that this might work. Kind of pissed me off. We went on to have a good/ emotional session after that but now I feel like why am I doing this if it's not going to work. Honestly before I saw the chart that is my life pattern I thought it was helping now I'm not so sure. Also I felt the pattern was indicative of the disthymic disorder I am diagnosed with ( for those of you who don't know what that is it is a basically functional but constant level of depression). To quote the credits from the TV series Buffy the Vampire Slayer "Gurr Arg"
Any way life is entertaining and I am entertained by it. I hope you are all having a great day and step on some crunchy leave for me :)
Every time I go to therapy they make me fill out an OQ ( Outcomes Questionnaire) that tracks how I am doing. My therapist pulled up the graph on it to show me and told me that basically the results were showing that I was probably not going to get any relief from my "symptoms" through therapy. This really frustrated me. I understand the need for assessment tools, but really is that the best thing to tell a client. It's like pulling the hope rug out from under them that this might work. Kind of pissed me off. We went on to have a good/ emotional session after that but now I feel like why am I doing this if it's not going to work. Honestly before I saw the chart that is my life pattern I thought it was helping now I'm not so sure. Also I felt the pattern was indicative of the disthymic disorder I am diagnosed with ( for those of you who don't know what that is it is a basically functional but constant level of depression). To quote the credits from the TV series Buffy the Vampire Slayer "Gurr Arg"
Any way life is entertaining and I am entertained by it. I hope you are all having a great day and step on some crunchy leave for me :)
