Long Time no blog

So it has been a while since I added anything hear. I did finish my 5K goal Yeah! and then it was back to the school work internship grind stone. I also went back to therapy. Sometimes I think it is ironic that I am a therapist in training in therapy, but ultimately I feel it is the right thing for me. Though something happened in therapy two weeks ago that makes me wonder.

Every time I go to therapy they make me fill out an OQ ( Outcomes Questionnaire) that tracks how I am doing. My therapist pulled up the graph on it to show me and told me that basically the results were showing that I was probably not going to get any relief from my "symptoms" through therapy. This really frustrated me. I understand the need for assessment tools, but really is that the best thing to tell a client. It's like pulling the hope rug out from under them that this might work. Kind of pissed me off. We went on to have a good/ emotional session after that but now I feel like why am I doing this if it's not going to work. Honestly before I saw the chart that is my life pattern I thought it was helping now I'm not so sure. Also I felt the pattern was indicative of the disthymic disorder I am diagnosed with ( for those of you who don't know what that is it is a basically functional but constant level of depression). To quote the credits from the TV series Buffy the Vampire Slayer "Gurr Arg"

Any way life is entertaining and I am entertained by it. I hope you are all having a great day and step on some crunchy leave for me :)

Run Jenny Run Day 22 and 23

5K Training days 22 and 23: End of week 7: I have been slowly creeping up speed this week I have am now less then two tenth of a mile away from two miles I got 1.861 miles today running at a 3.5 Other than the warm up and cool down I am now running non stop 25 minuets.

Run Jenny Run Day 20 and 21

5K Training day 20 and 21: So I didn't write about last Friday it was really hard I was pushing myself really hard and it was hot and my shoes didn't fit right and I couldn't finish the interval the way it was written. I ended up with a blister on my Instep and it hurt and I was really I went to Belly Dance again on Saturday and was having such a good time I stayed for a second class. Unfortunately my body isn't used to that much hip movement and my right hip was so soar. I wish I could say that this is the reason I didn't run on Sunday but honestly I just didn't want to and we went and walked around three stores. I just didn't want to do it I find that I am fighting it all the time. There is less than a month now till the race and I just don't think I will be able to run the whole thing I am still not even getting two miles with what I am running currently and that is discouraging. I did however get back on the treadmill tonight and ran 25 minuets non stop for the first time. So there you go that is where I am at any ideas at motivation would be appreciated. Thank you all for your support.

Run Jenny Run Day 19

5K Training Day 19: Week six strikes back. I have been really struggling the last few weeks. Sick for one and then last week I only ran once. I did walk once and go to a belly dance class but I didn't run. The 5K is one month from today so I need to get back on track and so today I got back on the treadmill. 35 min Top speed 4.0 and a total of 1.8 miles. Here we go one month left I need your support.

Run Jenny Run Day 18

5K Training day Day 18: Beginning of week 6. Got sick last week and had to take some time off running, back on track today. Did run walk intervals totaling 35 minuets. i don't know the mileage due to my towel knocking off the magnetic dohicky thingy and restarting everything. It went well for not having run in a week . Glad to be back on track and I actually think I missed it a little last week, a little ... :)

Run Jenny Run Day 17

5K Training Day 17: End of week 5. 20 MINUETS NON- STOP!!!!!!!!!!! I did it Yeah!!!!!!!! ( that is all, thank you ) :) :) :)

Run Jenny Run Day 16

5K Training Day 16: Out at the Trail again today intervals were run 8 min walk 5 run 8 with a warm up and a cool down. there were tons of butterflies out on the trail today and if you know me you know I love butterflies! Every time I would pass one while I was running I would give it a little voice cheering for me saying "way to go Jennette! and You can do it ! I made them in to my own personal cheering section. Just as Sam called time there was a bunch of cotton falling around us and in my mind it was a ticker tape parade from the universe to celebrate. Silly? A little but this is what goes on in my head and I really liked my cheering butterflies :) We did a total of 35 min at 11 am it was warm and in that time I got sun burnt. Tomorrow night I do my first 20 min straight run. Wish me luck!