I am not Fat - End of Week two

The pictures above are of me at my heaviest weight 240 pounds. Right now I am down almost 10 pounds I weigh in tomorrow. I am sitting here watching DVR of Oprah's life class and thinking about my my beliefs and ego and my journey in general. One of the things that is hardest for me is overcoming my shadow beliefs but that in it's self is a belief that I have control over. For as long as I can remember I have told my self I am fat. so Jennette = Fat. so nothing else I have ever done is part of who I am. So from this day on I am no longer going to say I am fat. I am not Fat, I am Jennette. Jennette does not equal fat. Jennette equals awesome, energetic, brilliant, creative and fabulous. So this is me I am Jennette and I am not Fat.

Day 6: Biggest Loser Last Chance Work out

Biggest Loser Last chance work out just kicked Sam and My butts. We did the full video but it can be broken down. It was a really good work out. Jillian is the leader and it is the season 7 cast. Tara Costa and Sione are the most recognizable.

Today is my eat what I want day but I still work out; tomorrow I am back on the food plan but no work out. Thinking we may go up the canyon and see leaves Sunday or Monday depending on weather. We are thinking mil creak but are open to suggestions.

Yesterday I only got about 45 minuets of work out in due to not feeling well but at least I worked out. Calorie wise I stayed really close but at the end of the day I still went over.

Happy things:

Belly dance show tonight

Brownies

Sweat

All my love,

Jennette

Day 5 : to snack or not to snack

Quick post today, I'm not feeling well.

Day 4 ended with dance class that was good.

Oatmeal with Kiwi not bad a little tart.

Afternoons are killing me my snack is turning into a fourth meal and then I am our of calories for dinner. Ideas any one? I need filling low calorie (less than 150) snack ideas.

Day 5

15 minuet elliptical will work out more later.

happy things

funny puppies

Sleep

getting a DVR next week

All my love,

Jennette

Day four: step and pump

Photo: Me at the Tilamook cheese factory

Day four work out so far consisted of 30 minuet Walk on the treadmill and light strength training. My house is cold today so I got to war my jacket while working out and that made me feel all cozy



Yesterday I participated in my first flash mob ( yes I want to do another) this one was organized by my work and was for a meeting but it was fun to be a part of. I also ended the day ended with a step and pump class. Step and Pump is Step aerobics with intervals of strength training with free weights. I haven't done step for forever so it was a little tricky but I caught on eventually. I was, of course, right behind the girl as big as my wrist who added tons of extra steps to make it more difficult. In the past I would have felt really really bad for not being able to do what she did , but this time I found my self more grateful that I could just do what I was doing and was proud for keeping up as well as I did. I also was able to view her as something to strive towards, it is a switch for me and I kind of surprised my self .



Food is still a struggle but It was good to remember that an egg is only 70 calories and so when I was low on calories for dinner Eggs and toast it was. The other day I did old fashioned oatmeal with nectarines and a little sugar and it was great so today I am thinking doing it with Kiwi. I will let you know how it goes. I also tried the fiber one 90 calorie brownies yesterday. It was pretty good but a little dry it would be good dipped in milk. I think that has been one of the biggest food changes for me has been the cut back on Milk I can drink a half gallon a day, now I am down to two cups it is definitely different. I also tried the tomato basil laughing cow cheese. One wedge is only35 calories. It is perfect if you have a pizza craving, good on crackers not good on apples.



I got a little anxious about if this was working at all or not so I weighed my self early ( I was supposed to wait till Monday) The results were comforting though I am down two pounds since monday. I will keep this up and keep going :)



Happy Things

1) Trying new work outs
2) Sugar(puppy) feeling better
3) having a furnace in my home that doesn't have to be fed with wood or oil and keeps me warm on cold mornings.

All My Love,
Jennette

Day # 3 - Reese Pieces

So I did pretty well Yesterday I did a 30 min walk and light strength training in the morning. 40 walk with the dogs after work and 20 minuets on the hand bike while watching the biggest loser ( My favorite Show) Where I got in to trouble yesterday was a bag of Reese's Pieces on my dresser. I ended up eating about 250 calories worth so I ended up about 300 calories over for the day. I am struggling with finding easy snacks under 150 calories and Lunches under 400 calories . I would love ideas if any one has any.

I have already done elliptical and some strength training this morning.

Short post today as I have to be in to work early

Happy / grateful things

1) Having a great team on one of my hardest cases

2) Biggest Loser !!!

3) people who read this

All my love,

Jennette

Day two - keeping the ball rolling

So, Day two: did 30 minuets on the treadmill and push ups, squats and plank. I plan on doing pedal bike and some upper body yoga this evening. I have to be careful with yoga because my hip could be a lot worse if I don't watch it.

I figured out yesterday that I have about 217 days to reach my goal and I need to lose 3 to 4 pounds a week to do it. I am telling everyone about it in hopes that that will keep me on track. I am scared that I will do what I seem to always do and that is start strong and then get tired and give up. I am not going to do that this time!!! When Sam and I were discussing this who process on Sunday he said something that stood out to me. I was lamenting about how I have tried this before and why would this time be any different and he said that is that this time is different because I am coming in to it with a different set of experiences than I have previously. It struck me how true this is we are always growing and changing and there is nothing to lock us in to past behavior patterns. One of my favorite quotes is from Ann of Green Gables "Tomorrow is always fresh, with no mistakes in it" I just have to remember that each and ever day and keep going.

Yesterday I ended up working out about one hour 45 minuets total not quite the two hours but I didn't get off work till 8 pm. Sam is worried I will burn out if I keep going at the pace I am going. I just don't know how else to do it.

Right now I am leaning towards spark people as an eating program I logged there yesterday and I went about 100 calories over my 1550 calorie goal. The only thing that I am worried about with spark people is I am not sure they adjust the calories you are given based on how much you exercise while weight watchers does. Over all I would count my first day as successful. Thank you to those of you who have commented here and at face book . So to tie this in to one of my other goals I am going to finish my posts with some things that make me happy / things I am grateful for.

1) Super supported Husbands

2) Co workers willing to go on a walks with me

3) Shaved Puppies

All my Love !

Jennette

October 3, 2011 Day 1 - Looking for Support

So today Sam and I got up at 5:30 am and worked out. I did 30 minuets on the elliptical and about 25 minuets strength training with a work out I got off of Spark people .com. I have plans to work out again tonight. I have a very Lofty goal I would like to lose 100 lbs by my birthday May 6, 2012 when I turn 33. I figure in order to do this I need to we working out 6 days a week 2 hours a day. I am still trying to decide on an eating plan. I am vacillating between weight watchers and basic calorie counting. I already have a membership to Weight watchers on line and I can count calories on spark people for free. So what do you think? Which Direction would you go?

When I did my couch to 5 K summer 2010 the support from those who read this either on blogger or through Face book really helped. I am hoping I can get that help again. I am also hoping that some of you would be willing to call me during the week and help keep me motivated.

So what do you think can you help me out? If you can let me know and I will send you my phone number.

Thank you so much in advance!!!!

All My Love,

Jennette