Run Jenny Run Day 5

5K training day 5: So I ended up skipping Friday's run because of the getting ready to redecorate my kitchen this weekend ,so I did day five this morning. it was really hard to get my self to do this run I am not entirely sure why even on Friday when I did have time I just wanted to sleep. I will do day six tomorrow night which gives me over 24 hours between and then I can still get my three runs in this week. My motivation is waning a little bit (I think spending the last two days sanding and painting is having an effect [we're redecorating our kitchen] ) but I have a plan of attack and I will do this!! I have always wanted to be a runner but have let excuses hold me back but I know I can do this. I pushed through the run this morning, the last two segments almost killed me, so i know I can keep going and do this. I like the fact that I am pushing my self to do something so far out of my comfort zone.

Run Jenny Run Day 4

5K Training Day 4: First day of week two Increase of running time kicked my trash tonight. I was excited to come home and run tonight. I am realy liking having a goal to work towards. I have also found my self having a desire to be more active in general taking the stairs at work taking more walks etc... oh and a shout out to all my peeps, holla ! hey, it made me laugh ;) and yes I do realize I am way to white to for that to sound cool lol :)

Run Jenny Run Day 3

5k training day 3: Ran outside for the first time with Sam :) not sure on distance but I did two more running intervals than normal (cause Sam didn't know when to stop lol) with a total time of 40 minutes. First week down :)

Running outside was harder than running inside. I think it will be good to do the two days inside to get used to the new interval before I go outside on Sundays. Training out side I think will be important because the Race will be outside and it is definitely different.

Run Jenny Run Day 2

5k training day 2: I was able to up my speed to 4mph and did 1.42 miles :) , just keep swimming (running) right :) I also think I have found my race :) lots of smiley faces make me happy :)

Little harder to get started today I had planed to do it in the morning but ended up reading my vampire romance book instead :} vampire with only one tooth. but I did do it!

Run Jenny Run Day 1

Day one of training for a 5K: So I found a program that is from couch to 5K in 9 weeks. It starts out week one 5 minuet warm up then run for 60 seconds then walk for 90. I also did a 5 minuet cool down for a total of 30 minuets. I ended up run/waliking 1.39 miles with a max speed of 3.7 mph. Yeah!! :) Now, I just need to find a 5K. Does any one know of one in August or early September? or a good sight to find one?

trepidation hope and dinner

So I just sent Sam to the Store to go and get some of the last ingredients for dinner and thought I would drop in here and up date a little bit. Life is crazy right now but it could be a lot worse. We have been very lucky to not be seriously effected by the economic down turn. We both still have our jobs, our house and our heath (mostly). We are both able to go to grad school. This blessing is one of those you have to be grateful for but at the same time it is a journey that I am on with equal parts hope and trepidation. I am scared out of my mind that I won't succeed and wash out of the program. I am hopeful that I will complete the program in an above average manner and will be able to go on an help individuals in a way that changes their lives for the better and in helping each individual make a change in the world for good. I think more than anything else I want to inspire others to help them feel able and worthy of change and good things for themselves. I feel that this should be the role of religion or spirituality but with out a religion to start from as a base it is hard to know where to start. I liked teaching Sunday school and feeling like I was giving people a message of hope or instruction for living a better life. I feel in my current role as a social worker people do not look to me for inspiration they often look to me in fear or for permission. I want to encourage and to show them a better way is possible to help them find joy and understanding. I want this to be possible even inside the role of a social worker. I worry because of my own hang ups that they are not able to view me as the conduit I want to be. I am trying to be able to more fully let the purpose of my life be expressed, to put a side old jealousies and hurts to find balance and joy in my own existence so that I can more fully bring light to those around me. It's just hard, but I am brought to mind the quote I never said it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it. I think this is true of all change. I think the hardest thing for me to change is my perception of my self. To be able to truly see my self as a conduit for light and goodness to come in to the world and to be able to model my outer appearance to express who I truly believe I am on the inside.

I know most people seem to have these blogs to let people know of the events and ongoings in their lives and I feel this is the same thing I just focus more on my inner life, the changes and ongoings in my soul. So if your reading this know I am giving you access to my soul and heart and hope that you treat it with the love and gentleness that I hope to treat yours with.

So now back to dinner.

New Back ground

I miss my old back ground it disapeared one day and I could never find it again so this is my new one till I can get one I like better. Have a Great Day.